Wednesday, March 23, 2016

I don't know if I'm the cause of my environment or my environment is the cause of me. My surrounding rooms are as chaotic and overwhelming as I feel. And I am in constant search of a creative outlet.

Thursday, March 17, 2016

It's late. Everyone sleeps but me. I'm book shopping even with shelves upon shelves of unread books. I need help.

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

February was a tough month. It forced me to face a lot of emotions, fears, regrets. Although there were nights where I drowned them out with alcohol and television. Anything to avoid my own thoughts.

I had no desire to write or bake. I mostly stayed off snapchat and instagram. I didn't keep up with my friends as I usually do. I essentially kept to myself. Being with family is what energized me. It forced me to get out of the house and once I was out, I was fine. Seeing the kids run around and finding joy in everything gave me a new perspective.

This month I am trying to get back to what was normal but I still feel off kilter. All I really want to do is to take a trip. Somewhere that requires a long drive and being out in nature. I feel the impulsive need to do it.