On a separate note, it is completely hard not to cringe reading back some of my older posts. I am my own worst critic and really want to hit delete or at the very least edit some of those older posts but I wont. They're bad and they'll stay that way. It's the ones where I am most honest that I feel good about. Like this entry I wrote about the struggle I had been going through. I'll let that be a lesson to myself. Being real is where my better writing lies.